Saturday 17:37

The nights are getting longer here in beautiful downtown Timmins. It is really warm (unseasonally).

I will be a proud owner of a motorcycle. Just have to wait and see it; but, I already made up my mind.

Last week I won $100000 with 13 others so my grand total is around $7100. I know exactly what I am going to do with it.

God has been good to me through the good times and the bad times. Right now, I am feeling good.

On television, I am watching a whole day of Tim McGraw. He is one sexy and talented guy. The best part of him is that he is true to himself, his family. God bless Tim McGraw.

Oh, I forgot, I got a new sewing machine and I already sown my blue jeans and now I am starting on a dress for my Christmas party.

I am still employed and I am feeling much better.

August 5, 8:37 pm

Another day. Another dollar.

Watching Home Improvement again. Tim Allen is great and very funny. This episode is the “Flirting” Episode.

LOL. Two women “flirted” with the cop and Tim to get their way. Do women who flirt get away with more than men?

I try and I can’t seem to get the hang of it well. Either I overdo it or I don’t do it at all. There never seems to be a happy media.

August 4, 8:33 pm

Watching “This hour has 22 Minutes”. Great show with lots of humour and satire.

Nothing interesting happened today. Two weeks ago + One wrong medication = drama and no sleep.

I totally took sleep and calamity for granted. Not any more.

Already August…

Tomorrow is my good friend Lena’s birthday. She is heading for a milestone this year. I hope it’s a good one Lena.

I am watching Home Improvement. Very Funny. and in this episode very touching.

Have a great evening.

Saturday 21:07 and I gots the blues

Today I was at a wonderful blues festival in Porquis Junction, Ontario. it featured many acts such as: Tim Vaughn, Erin McCallum and a perennial favourite, Rita Chiarelli.

Of course there were more acts. Each act has an hour and forty-five minute set and the cost was $30 for the entire weekend. You got your bang for your buck.

I will make plans to attend next years festival; but this time with a mate or a good friend.

Wish you all the best tonight Internet land.

Sunday 14:07

This past week has been quite rough. I need a vacation; however, I haven’t spent a year at my work yet. I just feel burned-out and I hope that it will end soon enough.

Hope your weekend is going well.

See you soon.

Monday and it is freaking HOT out here

We are at 30C here in beautiful downtown Timmins. My car recorded 35 on my way home. I hope that my new house will have air conditioning. It is so hot… that you can steam your vegetables in the air. And boy is it humid. I think there will be a puddle of me on the floor if we continue on with this heat wave. If I had a fan at least I would be more comfortable. I am on day 19 on showering everyday. I don’t know how I managed hot day without a cool shower. Satan is still trying to make me be lazy and it is hard to fight. I was told by a Chuck Swindoll’s Insight for Living that you should just ignore these voices and to focus on the task at hand.

Oh by the way. I am getting a new motorbike sometime in the near future and I will be taking my M licence test on July 9th. Wish me luck. My dad will be riding with me as well. I am too happy for words. My father will stay with me for 2 weeks until Sunday.

I also might be getting a new house I am getting an offer prepared and I hope that I do get it. Parking in beautiful Timmins is a terrible and dry joke. Can’t park here, can’t park there, Can’t seem to park any any where. So I think that I am mature enough and strong enough to buy a house. It isn’t the bungalow that I want but it has everything else. a Porch, swimming pool. I am one blessed lady to have found a house like this one.

So I hope no one melts and I wish you all a blessed evening.

Wednesday 10:48 pm, Timmins Ontario

Another starry night here in Beautiful downtown Timmins and I am 7 days in taking a shower everyday and now I feel rather icky now. As in like I want to shower right now. I am still scared of how all of this will turn out; but in the end, I have God to help me through this. He is an awesome God for putting up with me. Romans 8:38-39. Knowing that He is there for me is a great weight lifted off my shoulders and I praise God for this gift.

As I said before, this journey wasn’t going to be easy; today I realize that I still have bad thoughts about me killing myself. I definitely need to talk to someone about this. And I have been repenting for my bad deeds and thoughts to the Lord. I also have much forgiving to do. Colossians 3:13

I think about Exodus 4:10-11 when Moses made excuses of returning to Egypt and God was telling him basically that He will look after him. This tells me that no matter what struggles I have, God will take care of me just like he took care of Moses.

God gives us struggles to help us learn our lessons. My lesson is this: Satan is everywhere and will try to sway you away from your goals and dreams, your purpose. Nothing pleases Satan more than to steer somone away from true happiness and fulfillment. Now I know which voices to listen to and which ones not to listen. Sometimes I still get confused; but, I am getting better at discerning these voices.

May these words bring you peace and joy and may it bring you closer to God.

Progress….

It has been over one month since I started my meds and only three weeks since I started on my anti-psychotic. When the voices go away you get really bored easily and want to do something… anything to keep yourself occupied. I have my new bowflex to keep me busy in the mornings and television; which by the way I am watching much less. I am so bored that I still go to sleep in the days just to keep myself occupied. However, there is major progress though, I have now showered every single day since June 4th so this is REAL progress; trust me you didn’t want to be near me after 7 days without a bath. I am a little more at ease meeting new people. Three pills a day can do so much.

I still want to buy my house with a new music studio and a sewing studio as well. And I will have a dog to love when I move into my new home. God, is in everything that I do now. I still get halucinations; but, it is much less and I am more aware of reality now. So it is good. I always knew that this wouldn’t come as easily as intended. But it will come with time.

God is a gracious God to help me realize my journey and to realize that I have so much potential.

Have a Happy Sunday to all.

I have a question to ask you.

Is it appropriate for a woman to learn to ride a motorcycle?

I am serious. And please comment. I have old-fashioned parents who still think that I shouldn’t do this. Please let me know that I am on the right track!!!

Thanks a bunch!

edit: did you see the Detroit and Chi-town play for the Western Conference. Starting the Third Period at 0 – 0. This one’s a nailbiter; you can tell because the Chicago coach is just about to explode; He looks so serious and sinister. I know that Detroit will get it in the end.